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Alexander Hayes & Magali McDuffie

Alexander Hayes & Magali McDuffie

Magali and I both have chosen 'freedom' as the core living truth in our life which we discussed and continue too discuss.

Freedom as in free to be, not freedom within constraint of societal norms and expectations. Freedom as in free to be - Libre D'etre.

Magali and I have both stated recently that we had never ever considered that our life experience and our relatedness which embodies that freedom as being perhaps the greatest legacy or giving back to the world despite our career aspirations. That realisation that perhaps your life experience IS the journey.

So it is I write tonight reflecting deeply on something that has happened recently, something so deeply fundamental and (for others) radically untenable in traditional relationships. I say 'radical' only in that myself I know I took a giant leap forward which for some they have always inherently felt they had anyway.

However, I will recount my own learning in this process of letting go to grow. In a post coined in February 2015 I grappled at what those fundamental awareness points include stating at the time:

"....So, after 46 years of living in every known conceivable arrangement of relationships I have come to a non-binding awareness of the following. I have put them as dot points in a list because I know some of you might like to consider them as separate things but in essence they are all the same and interwoven as one.

  • We are single, always.
  • The most powerful relationship we ever have is with ourselves;
  • We have many, many, many relationships in our lives and those we have sex with make up a very small proportion of the total count of who we related too;
  • We have only the capacity to have one bonded, fully articulated, affinity centred, trusted relationship - a partner, who essentially is our witness in our life;
  • We can have sex with as many people as we want but we cant have as many people as we need having sex with us;
  • In being open with our partner, in being open with our Family, friends and the world we can be in ourselves and not spread out across others;
  • In each relationship (of all descriptions) there are only three things that matter - treat each other well, respect each others differences and to show on a constant basis in an explicit way gratitude for each other;
  • Above all, trust - trust is the core essence to any relationship especially with ourselves.

In late 2016 I went as far as I could dare go in speaking of which we both now speak freely and open publicly. The post at that time focussed on the concept of compersion - https://www.alexanderhayes.com/journal/compersion

I've also written about trust - https://www.alexanderhayes.com/journal/trust

Freedom - https://www.alexanderhayes.com/journal/freedom

Monogamy - https://www.alexanderhayes.com/journal/two-becomes-none

The most important post of all was this one - https://www.alexanderhayes.com/journal/love-unlocked

And now here is how I experienced it all, written in leet (not discrete) style. 

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Strikes at the heart, head.

That hyperventilated feeling, anxious and grabbing for coffee, cigarettes, Valium. Its a visceral snake-sliding-woosh-feeling that surges from the soles of your feet to an explosion in your head. Everything you had ever read, heard, been advised of punches into your psyche and FEAR PERMEATES.

Cuts the day in half and as you trip into lunchtime you know everything that anyone who had ever taught you to fear letting go...well this is the show. This is it. This is the moment you are being challenged the deepest about your mapped monogamy, your possession of partners, your condescending and hurtful comments made in fear, disguised, heavy salient syrup of fear. Marriage after marriage. Relationship folding furiously from one into the other. Over each other.

Your PTSD says 'run'. Your soul says stay.

What happens next is just that. You strike your head with your hand so hard it sends you almost to your knees. Again. Again. The fear is like a swirling inky black viper eating into you like cancer. Blow after blow. Punishing yourself to bring your soul back into this dreadful moment of facing it.

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Letting go in order to grow. True compersion, practised, in action. No training possible to prepare yourself for this learning.

Well thats what it has been for me. That moment you turn to your partner and say "...you are blessed. Free to be... always were, are. No permissions needed. Not shared as you are not owned. Encouraged you go, connect, be yourself in this world."

LIBRE D'ETRE.

You are standing there finding yourself actually saying it and in hearing your own voice knowing its the other compassionate, spiritual and soulful you. The one you had buried away in those fear folds. That 'you' you always knew was the way forward.

I'd scrambled together two pages of notes mainly to myself, saying everything I'd felt in fear...a string of irrational needy throwaways - perfectly normal I'm told. Then there was that meeting in the airport, that intense rush of happiness for you. Seeing you happy, chirpy and cageless flying.

Flushed cheeks. Swagger. Coy grin. Flick of the hair. Thin lip naughty laugh. Giggles.

Free to be. Do what you want wherever, with whomever however....with respect. With an intent to grow your relatedness with others. Approaching love and life as a series of relationships good, bad and everything in between. Deep lust. Love. Loss. Grief and the coming back. Growing our connection.

Trust. Always returning to trust. Trust above all else.

 

EVO, Minecraft, Memory Palace Presentation

I have been invited to connect with participants in the 'Electronic Village Online' (EVO) upcoming events sometime in February 2018 [ change the date here and link to the online event ]

As a presenter I am going to explore the notion of how Minecraft is affecting our method of loci, reshaping (eroding?) our memory palace skills and with the onset and convergence of mixed reality wearable technology in this space how it may be contributing to the shift in humanity as we know it, especially in younger children who are heavily involved in that space (not place).

The following is how I plan to deliver my presentation and connect with that community of adults online as far afield as Dubai and Canada with me located in Australia.

  • Introduction - formal titles, past experience, current projects, links
  • Caveat - technological skeptic / techno-optimist statement 
  • Concepts - realities - augmented / virtual / augmendiated / mixed
  • Technologies - MagicLeap, Hololens, Occulus Rift et al.
  • Notions - Place, country, memory, time (relative)
  • Frameworks - method of loci, memory palace, Kalara, dadirri, socio-ethical
  • Hypothesis - Factions (Minecraft) as neural brain wash, placeless corporations
  • Discussion - power, control, privacy, politics, policing and perception
  • Context - based on links provided
  • Questions - open discussion

Presentation Title

Minecraft: My Experience and Your Dilemma

Abstract

As active agents of sociological change children now challenge the researcher stereotype amidst a battleground of virtual, augmented and mixed reality wearable computing. Fractals once closer to philosophical ramblings of the mathematical in the field of chaos theory are now an educative and neurological rearrangement as STEAM gets creative in Minecraft. A dilemma has emerged as participatory netnography reveals the longer term socio-ethical effects of corporations punching through our privacy firewalls, programming our minds and harvesting our creativity. 

  
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Entitlemania

Source: xnspy.com/

Source: xnspy.com/

I think we have reached saturation point where as parents we have lost our way using old rules to govern new ways of living.

Look at our kids. They are addicted to screens to the point that as parents we are the 'ughs' that inhabit their house. We have become those barking contradictory fools that demand they get home by midnight, driven by a friend because we are too drunk ourselves to drive our own car to go find them. Our credit cards are racked up with all sorts of app store spends and when we threaten them with 'grounding' they laugh and say ' well go ahead then because you are already standing in my room and this where I want to be anyways'.

So you wake up in the morning to them screaming at you as to why they are late to go out for a 'makeover', stumble into the kitchen to find empty four litre ice cream containers, jello plastered all over the bench and a string of ants eating their way through the honey smacko triple whipped cookie crumbs. The car is in for a service yet again from the countless taxi pickups you made as you ferry your ungrateful, unseeing being to and from soccer, football, basketball, party, after party, shopping centre after shopping centre and guitar lessons home again.

You whine to your own parents that you are ignored, pushed, shoved, screamed and threatened with "....you fucking touch my shit in my room again you CUNT AND I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU". All those lovely photo albums of that cute kid you once knew have disappeared into that unkempt, slovenly, obnoxious, jackass that now occupies your teenagers bedroom. Your garden hose no longer reaches the end of the rose bushes as you trip over the empty bongs in the grass and that rank reek of male urine is what is killing the petunias. 

Long gone are those dinners where you could at worst tell your child to 'shut up and eat dinner' and when you have threatened to smack them they have read you the riot act of 'indecent assault occasioning body harm' or 'you are one step away from a divorce'. You confide in your partner who has taken to rip their hair out in quiet away from the point of conflict and despite the years of their seemingly serene calmness they too have turned into the vice-Superintendent. 

So what has technology taught you in the last decade that you thought you might avoid and unsuccessfully now live by. So the television wasn't that great a babysitter was it? and your benign assumptions that your teenager isn't accessing porn largely went unfounded too. The idea that them having a mobile phone was your security of mind failed as you flick through the candid surveillance shots and video clips they had been sending through the Snapchat without your knowledge.

So now you are standing there pointing your finger at me, the Internet and blaming me for your issues and lack of empathy for your situation. Well it's like this folks. Your idea of security and well being isn't valid anymore. Your kids entitlemania, need for consumerism, capitalist pig tendencies, insatiable greed for Youtube likes is where its all at. Long gone are the 'these are the house rules' as we feed your kids all the shit that they could possibly need to turn your precious little bumpkins into the surly, selfish and viperous soulless drones we need. 

Entitlemania is here to stay and the sooner you get used to the social-surveillance you live within, the lock-step buy-this-then-that instructions and the countless ways we can turn your children against you then the sooner your lives will evolve from that sensitive new age generation blah rubbish you were fed the better.

Love, your entitlemania-ego-rendition-of-you as a fairy queen is long lost somewhere in there as you sob into your pillow. The only antidote to your sickness is wellness and no, Google doesn't have the answer and no amount of prescription drugs, yoga or clandestine flings with that nice person at work will help either.

This is where we as parents admit that its a tough road ahead and no tougher than the road ahead for our kids and what they have to face life without their daily punching bag and foopie blanket to caress. 

 

 

2014 Open Conference - Using Video in Education

On May 3, 2014 I contributed to the 2014 La Trobe University Open Conference on Using Video In Education event. I provided examples of the manner in which I was using Google Hangout webcasts and body worn cameras to facilitate learning and engage teaching professionals in how video can be created and used as a resource for teaching and learning.


Access the event Wikiversity page [ HTML ]

Survivor Impact Statement

Today it occurred to me that there are a number of survival skills I have learned which may benefit others, so, like everything that I have achieved in the last few years I am going to share them in the hope that they may make a difference in other people's lives.

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ONERC

The comment above was made in my Facebook publication of the link to the article by Nicolas Beriot, Former Secretary General, ONERC - National Observatory of the Effects of Climate Change, French Ministry of the Environment, Engineer.

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Didirrgun

Tonight we had the privilege of sitting on the pidan dunes amongst all the cockle shells listening to Bart Pigram, Uncle Peter Peter's and another Elder tell stories of their time as children on Kennedy Hill, Broome, Western Australia. We listened to another old welcome to country audio stories and then they told us stories about Boogarragarra, the lady in the red dress, the devil dog story, about fishing for stingrays, old men fishtraps down south and also north of Broome.

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Protecting Country

In July 2017  with the guidance of Bruce Hammond, Tanganekald Traditional Custodian of Adelaide, South Australia in conjunction  Magali McDuffie from Ngikalikarra Media I assisted in bringing the ‘Protecting Country’ documentary film on a screening road trip across Australia. The road trip took 14 days to complete and we travelled over 7741 kilometres through some of the most remote regions of Australia.

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Power

At the centre of what I have enjoyed for most of my life is as a creative, a teacher and the mixed and decadent world of the artist, the aesthete. When I see things, hear things, smell things, touch things I gain memory from the experience, not simply a reaction as some might without memory. Those experiences I’ve conveniently always thought of as attributes forming my own ‘self’, my own personality, not operating alone though rather individual as a member of a community and part of a greater society. 

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1984

In 1984 whilst attending secondary school I read and was deeply affected by George Orwells ‘Nineteen Eighty Four” written in 1948 and published 1949 forecasting much of what we are now experiencing in a contemporaneous society. 

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The PhD Research Journey

For those who exist in the lockstep, sleepwalking world of consumerist society the research journey seems only a fast way to another ticket, another accreditation. That reality though is an experiential mission, through moments of critical reflection, the hovering self, the form that is part of the physical body on the ground but the spiritual capacity to see oneself out of body so to speak. Without that capacity to reflect on our actions, take responsibility for our behaviours and change our course in life regularly all we become are ground level dwellers, basement jacks with a lack of connection, tiptoeing around the real issues in life and making others life hell in the moral meantime.

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Justice

In society we are grown from a young person to believe that if we are harmed or even threatened that there is a natural recourse for this action under the premise of justice, that 'Law' will ensure retribution, order and balance will be retained.

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Connecting With Place

Connecting with place means living with one eye on the present moment and the other hovering around looking back and trying to avoid making new mistakes. It means that the world can be our ‘place’, that our birthplace never changes nor does the tie to moral culture restrict us to enacting, living out the expectation of others to conform to their own control structure. 

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