Fallen Angel

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Everyone has the right to believe in what they want. No one has the right to tell others what to believe…especially especially those who business is to endorse and protect pedophiles whilst claiming they are on their knees to save us from eternal hell and damnation.

As Sartre was often heard to say, hell is other people, not a place conveniently located post living as a human on this earth…and in my case this hell was every supposedly christian institution I was ever sent to.

If you have ever wondered where the term ‘mass’ came from there you have it. A group of a few to many who believe in the same (often inculcation) and then harm others with it. The same for repentance and yet again for forgiveness. Without either all you have is outright carnage and slaughter and neither term originated from any christian bootcamp, rather it’s been a moral pagan accord since the beginnings of time.

Catholicism brought us the black box in which we can speak to an unseen who forgives us and encourages us to go back to the village for more. Prayer is the common symbol for the openly oppressed and to congregate is good business especially when it fits the frame of capitalism and looking good. Fine up-standing citizens who practice all the virtues and then break every single one of them as hypocrites and common charlatans.

For me, I’ll accept at most the tag of fallen angel even though that is a far stretch from the will of an angry young child repeatedly defiled as a ‘seer’ and chosen ‘lamb of god’. Go fuck your yourselves I say to the many who see the vulnerable, innocent and meek as fair game to play. No amount of burning in your own man made hell will save you from the harsh light of solitary in protective custody.

Anyhoo… in the last few months I have received a range of responses to my efforts to see justice served for the many men who have suffered as result of their contact with William Richmond Sandwell, convicted felon, convict, pedophile.

There has been genuine expressions of sadness, care and empathy balanced of course with a mix of ‘I love you’ (conditional and one way) as well as “…too short a sentence for the monster” and even callous remarks like “…well now you can close that chapter and get on with your life”. In a series of written emails I’ve also been informed that I’m now an ‘Apostate’ by proxy, by abandoning a religious or political belief or principle in order to achieve the exposure of a pedophile manifest.

Still others have gone as far to renounce my efforts as ‘fallen angel’ which in Abrahamic religions, fallen angels are angels who were expelled from heaven. So, let me explain it this way for those of you who feel that your spiritual and religious beliefs matters in an Australian Court of Law.

Firstly, I did not swear on nor at a Bible in order to provide three decades worth of facts to a Royal Commission into the Sexual Abuse of Children, Institutional Responses, also to Sutherland Police Detectives and for weeks in a trial which has seen 9 survivors step forward and hundreds of witnesses interviewed. Belief in humanity and in Law which transcends any current bullshit of supposed reverence means no amount of postulations of pious holiness changes facts to fear driven fiction.

To be a Fallen Angel means you firstly need to believe in a “heaven” and more importantly in a “hell”. Without these conveniently off Mother Earth myths the Christian Judaic fear driven business model fails to hold over its captive gullible congregation. Secondly, no amount of prayers to a dude who was immaculately conceived, died, somehow ended up in control of a trillion headed snake that ate an apple….you get the picture.

Belief has nothing to do with pedophiles and yet thats precisely what they “prey” upon in all manners of worldly charm. Repenting, praying and turning to anything is not what pedophiles do - they simply protect each other with the very same silences the church as a capitalist pig perpetuating its crimes through time immemorial.

Sadly, for those who should be opening their archives, their books and their mouths all that they would become in the harsh cold hard light of the Law is mute, complicit to their ‘blind eye’ to abuse… happening right in front of them! To admit you failed to report these crimes against humanity is to render all that you know, all that you are and all that you will become as nothing but mere, mortal and irrelevant nothing in the annals of time.

Saying nothing and doing nothing means you are no different to those before you who lived in hope. The fact is ACTION is all that makes change occur. To act on what is EVIL means fighting it with tough love, not forgiveness and apologies. Go stick your apologies up your own apologist ass.

Repeatedly we are reminded and made aware of that Australia is run by conservative freaks whose houses of their lords are rampant havens for pedophilia, extortion and false prophet. These supposedly religious institutions need to be dismantled as they are illegal and continuing to run the same ‘fear over ‘ business model as this current liberal blue-tied government…which serves itself.

For those who wish to pray for my sins, get off your fucking knees and do something for those who have suffered as a result of your bullshit brigades. For those of you who think rebranding your remote church camps away from civilisation as ‘safe ministry’ cleanliness, be aware that any institutional ‘Professional Standards Unit ’ is under close, close scrutiny….never believed, always circumspect.

For those of you who thought you got away with your crimes from your safe havens of heavenly good fortune, the big house awaits, filled with fallen angels, apostates and every other known fear term you can humanely imagine to cut you to the core. No prayers, no claims of redemption, no frills nor frocks will ever protect those who see fit to claim ‘God’ while making others lives hell on earth.

“…To my knowledge, the convicted abuser, Adrian Sandwell, was banned from any children’s or youth ministry in 2002. Prior to this he was involved in leadership of the Sutherland CEBS, and a high ranking leader in the CEBS at movement in NSW. Years ago Sandwell was for a short time a member of our church and spoke at a few of our family services.” - http://gymeaanglican.org.au/2019/07/05/rethinking-big-issues-church-leader-jailed/

The fact is Sandwell frequented many churches and CEBS meeting grounds all over this nation. Sandwell is recorded in hansards of meetings all over this country over a thirty year period and much of this is openly accessible through the Internet with records of active involvement with Youth related groups right up until

It’s time the archives were laid open of the institutions that protected these crimes against humanity.

Here is the report from the Royal Commission on the Church of England Boys Society. [ PDF ]



UPDATE: It seems my request to append my story at the Livingwell group with notice of Sandwell’s conviction has not yet been approved - https://www.livingwell.org.au/from-men/stories-of-mens-experience/alexs-real-story/

St John The Baptist

Tucked away on the corner opposite vipers of similar making is St. John The Baptist Anglican Church in Sutherland NSW Australia.

At this location, convicted pedophile William Richmond “Adrian” Sandwell perpetrated crimes against young boys and men whilst as a ‘leader’ of the Church of England Boys Society (CEBS) over a 30 year reign of destruction.

I’ve updated Wikipedia and the entry seems to have stuck - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anglican_Communion_sexual_abuse_cases#Anglican_Church_of_Australia

Not surprisingly the current clergy are distancing themselves from anything that might bring them in contact with this criminal past and nor are there or likely to be any incriminations any more than the perpetuations that these illegal institutions continue to manifest. Below is a screenshot of my written submission through their website contact page suggesting my email address is already listed as ‘banned’ on their server listing.

Here is the report from the Royal Commission on the Church of England Boys Society. [ PDF ]


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On the very same evening I found the following in the Bishop Abuse Tracking website.


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Crimes Against Humanity

A vastly unpopular story and a critically urgent issue in our society, across all cultures and indiscriminate of age, gender or ethnicity. A short film Magali McDuffie and I made to reach out to those who are experiencing the very same we have endured through this legal process.

Here is the report from the Royal Commission on the Church of England Boys Society. [ PDF ]


Alexander Hayes recounts the legal and judicial process as result of speaking his life story and seeking justice after 33 years as he states "... in my own mind made prison....this is not a story about hope rather it's a story about action."


Victims Register

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Today I have had the dubious pleasure of registering to be informed by the NSW State’s Justice Department as to when and if William Sandwell is released for prison.

Here is the report from the Royal Commission on the Church of England Boys Society. [ PDF ]

I am hopeful that others will action their own stories and step up to the same system I endured to bring their own stories forward which will lead to further convictions if and when deemed answerable. No amount of kind words today made it any easier to again have to apply for my own emancipation and to have ‘VICTIM’ emblazoned is for me such a poor cousin to the term ‘SURVIVOR’.

A victim is someone who falls foul of what they have endured and a survivor is someone who does well with their life and story as a result of what they have endured.

The related Lawlink address to search for court hearings are located here - https://onlineregistry.lawlink.nsw.gov.au



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Jailed

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“…A former Church of England Boys' Society lay leader and scripture teacher at Sutherland has been sentenced to a minimum three years and seven months jail for historical child sexual assault offences.
Many of the offences occurred in church-run camps for boys in Royal National Park. William Richmond Sandwell, 78, of Loftus, appeared in the District Court, Downing Centre, after a jury found him guilty of 11 child sexual assault offences, committed against six children between 1965 and 1985. Sandwell, who also used the name Sandell at one time, denied the offences. Among "survivors" in court for the sentencing was Alexander Hayes, who now lives in Perth. Mr Hayes said outside the court Sandwell's assaults on him between the ages of 11 and 15 had had a "catastrophic effect on my life and a horrific impact on many families, including his own."

"It hasn't stopped me leading a good life, but it has had a big effect on me socially," he said. "I have been married and divorced three times, and its affected the intimacy I have with other people."



Mr Hayes said he believed Sandwell would have assaulted many more children over 30 years and that the church was aware of his actions from as early as 1991 and covered it up.


Sutherland police charged Sandwell in 2017 after investigating allegations of sexual assault of boys, who were members of the Church of England Boys' Society (CEBS). Judge David Arnott said Sandwell was a senior lay member of St John's Church, Sutherland, and, through this involvement, was also a leader of the parish's CEBS branch. CEBS ran weekly Friday night meetings where the boys played games, and there was also a big focus on camping trips.

The judge said Sandwell's offences ranged from fondling the genitals of boys to one instance of digital penetration, which was "particularly callous". Six offences had been against one boy.

The judge said, on one occasion, Sandwell told the boy he could not attend a camp sailing regatta because he had done something wrong. Sandwell had then ordered him to take a shower. The boy had panicked in the shower and tried to push past Sandwell, but the offender had prevented him leaving and then assaulted him. The judge said another boy testified he had "frozen in shock" when he was assaulted while lying in a sleeping bag.

The judge said Sandwell was also a primary school scripture teacher and, on a weekend camp, assaulted a boy aged 11-12. This boy, in his victim impact statement, had said he "changed from being a typical well behaved child to a self-destructive lifestyle".

The court heard Sandwell was a father of two, grandfather and great grandfather. He was married for 54 years and his wife died in 2016. The judge said Sandwell was raised by his mother and grandparents and only had contact with his father on two occasions.

In imposing sentence, Judge Arnott said he had taken into account a range of factors, including Sandwell's age, poor health and the fact he had not shown remorse. He sentenced Sandwell to a non-parole term of three years and seven months, backdated to when he was convicted and refused bail in March this year.

An additional term of two years and five months can be applied if he does not meet parole conditions. Sandwell will be eligible for release in October, 2022.

Text by Murray Trembath


Rap Sheet

According to my Witness Support contact these are the charges that Sandwell incurred which were read out to the Court with public media reporters present on Friday 28th June 2019.

  1. Count 1 - Indecent Assault (1965) D.G. - Grave Offence - 6 months

  2. Count 2 - Indecent Assault (1966) G.G. - Falls just below middle range range - 15 months

  3. Count 3 - Aggravated Assault (Aug. 66-68) P.M - Middle Range - 3 years

  4. Count 4 - Indecent Assault (1979) - D.D. - Mid point to lower middle range - 15 months

  5. Count 5 - Indecent Assault (1980) - A.H. - Lower range - 3 months

  6. Count 6 - Indecent Assault (1980) - A.H. - Lower range - 9 months

  7. Count 7 - Indecent Assault (1980 - 1981) - A.H. - Lower range - 9 months

  8. Count 8 - Indecent Assault (1983) - A.H. - Mid point lower end to mid range - “… evil intentions” - 15 months

  9. Count 9 - Aggravated Assault (1984-1985) - A.H. - Sexual intercourse without consent - “…Particularly callous” - 4 years

  10. Count 10 - Indecent Assault (1984-1985) - A.H. - A little below the midpoint, beyond the lower and the middle range - 12 months

  11. Count 11 - Indecent Assault (1984) - W.T. - Mid range with seriousness - 2 years 6 months

Total Sentence = 18 years imprisonment


Final Verdict & Sentence

William “Adrian” Sandwell received a Head Sentence of six (6) years with a non-parole period of 3 years, 7 months. Sentence commenced 27 March 2019 and Sandwell will be eligible for parole on 26 October 2022. The Head Sentence expires on 26 March 2025.

Here is the report from the Royal Commission on the Church of England Boys Society. [ PDF ]



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Filmtaking

In discussions with the Chief Investigator and Supervisor, Professor Katina Michael and listening in conversation with researcher and Filmmaker Dr. Magali McDuffie, the researcher struck upon where distinctions can be made between those engaged in the trust based relationship of filmmaking where the subject is aware of (and interacts with) the filmmaker in the role as an actor, versus that of the distrustful relationship with those who have ‘become-the-camera’ and are ‘film taking’.

Photo: Alexander Hayes

Photo: Alexander Hayes


Filmtaking, (opposite to filmmaking) that is ‘film’ or digital video that is ‘taking’ in a distrustful manner (not a trust based relationship) is taking away information purporting to be for the subjects best interests and even claiming that it protects the citizen rights, personal security and well being of the camera bearer, lifelogger, officer. The human (for the subject) is no longer visible and all that others then question (user known as bearer) in its absence is where then is the camera? In many cases, where it the camera oscillates from overt to covert in effect it then disappears into the human…and those around them dismiss that bearer (human wearer become camera) as simply another node in a surveillance society. The same claims that surveillance positions itself in society, a presence that engenders trust is in fact an orchestration that perpetuates distrust, with many accounts through my PhD research providing evidence of this phenomena. Likewise sousveillance which is nothing more than the inverse (yet not opposite) and despite all the claims of its power differential contribution is just another camera in the grid, a half-cocked blunderbuss staring down the barrel of a failed recalcitrance…wearing it essentially means you become it in a Heideggerian enframement.


The researcher in an effort to describe the transition as a researcher to that of the ‘filmtaker’ in the following three key positions; (1) that of the OBSERVER; (2) transitioning to that of PARTICIPANT OBSERVER; (3) and finally that of the PARTICIPANT ACTUATOR.


'“… As an OBSERVER from afar, I sat and looked in wonderment at humans who seemed to be doing something rather interesting with cameras and to achieve their goals they were strapping them onto themselves. I was looking at them from a distance and not understanding what they were doing I took a step closer. In some instances I kept my distance and whilst I attended forums and workshops or conferences or events I did not participate in the observable use of nor active engagement with the technology. Geoff Lubich was the first in 2004 and then I followed many others.”


“…As a PARTICIPANT OBSERVER I went about engaging with people who were experimenting with these body worn camera devices and secretly (privately and unknown to the others) I began testing the concept of wearing the camera to understand it in entirety. With some degree of creativity upon using it to create learning resources I was then considered to be an informant of the phenomena, an expert in knowledge of the field, a BWC contemporary across my own cohort. I was observed actively engaging with others during events and interacting directly with the technology, creating digital resources with the technology in a detached but tool oriented manner where the camera and its computations remained separate to my identity. I was disconnected with those who had already become the camera and lived their life by it, such as Cathal Gurrin, Steve Mann, Gordon Bell and countless others. I hadn’t yet become the camera although I had been avidly using handheld smartphones like a weapon for long enough, yet still able to put it down and retreat if I wished.”


 “…Then one day I received a camera that I could wear. In fact not just wear but attach to my body and forget about and it automagically transformed me into one more of itself, the framework on which it could be carried and operated no longer of any importance to its own mission. In effect the camera transformed me into a PARTICIPANT ACTUATOR, chilling my personal relationships considerably and cannibalised my thinking around data, value and community. The camera and its computations had become a large facet of my identity, now a total photoborg (as my daughter called me) and as others were referring to me as a cyborg. I had ceased to inform others of its workings and as I have described in many differing journal entries I noted a substantial shift in the way others related to me, engaged with me or 'acted' around me. I even refused to take it off and wilfully disregarded the objections by those who indicated they did not wish to be in my relational and objective field of view, not even subjects any more…just a sea of faces to feed the national security and corporation whereabouts machine with.”


So, as a participant actuator in a self confessed failed experiment from which I decided to retract (I have enough references there to defend it as a 'new' conceptual and perceptual finding) I’m considering breaking down the background chapter and renaming it OBSERVATIONS split down into two phases; (1) immersion in which I describe all the roles and events and then; (2) reflection through the 'eyes' of the journal and through the multitudes of eyes of the borg camera which is secondary evidence… hundreds of hours of film and hundreds of thousands of photos I took throughout that period.

Then, to finish the chapter up as Professor Teemu Leinonen and Leigh Blackall have likened it to an ‘expose of the disingenuity of an interview society’ I can examine all the differing points of reflection I now have to inform what I discovered in digital land versus my naive and often recalcitrant REFUSAL to conform to the cameras wishes...the many times I BROKE as a result of becoming that photoborg….actually being vulnerable about what failed heaven (for all of you who believe in one) forbid!!!

The authentic....and juxtapose the lot with Jean Rouch perhaps even signaling that surveillance and BWC is the death of filmmaking, positioning it rather as becoming FILM-TAKING.


(Excerpt from Magali McDuffie’s PhD thesis) - Rouch viewed film as a therapeutic device, in which people would become aware of, and then “accommodate, the psychological disjunctions caused by colonialism” (Eaton,1979, p. 6). In this sense the camera takes on a performative role, and becomes active rather than passive, an indispensable witness to lived experiences, and a catalyst for taking action – enabling people to give their own evidence of history (Hearne, 2006), and to create their own archive (Bonitzer & Toubiana, 2000).

Rouch conceived of the camera as an “accelerator”, allowing people to reveal themselves more rapidly than they would have otherwise, provided that trust be the essential founding elements of their relationship with the filmmaker. In this process the filmmaker was not only accepted by the participants, but also integrated in the action (Eaton, 1979). - Eaton, M. (Ed.). (1979). Anthropology-cinema-reality: The films of Jean Rouch. London: British Film Institute


ANZ Mlearn Symposium

The Google Glass phenomena was a key theme at the ‘ANZ Mlearn Symposium’ held at the Sydney Institute of Technology 2012 with the Researcher presenting a paper published by The Journal of the Australian and New Zealand Mobile  Learning Group titled ‘Reflections: Glass & Mobile Learning’ 

“... Point-of-view (PoV) or body worn video (BWV) prototypes have been trialled extensively in a cross- sector education and training context across Australia and New Zealand since early 2005. A national  snapshot  conducted  in  2010  (Hayes,  2010)  revealed  an  avid  interest  in  how  location  enabled  body   worn technologies could be used in an educational context.(Hayes, Frawley, et al. 2012)

Men Too

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Men Too

I have just woken in a sweat which has soaked the bed sheets to the point that I thought I had urinated the bed. It is 3:17 AM in the morning.

I am typing this into my smartphone in the dark.

This must be said. Men rape boys too. 

#mentoo suffer as a result of sexual assault.

These crimes occur across all cultures, indiscriminate of gender as we are all made aware of through the media.


I wish in this case, in this instance to highlight that men who suffer at the hands of pedophiles are having a catastrophic effect on our humanity as all those around them suffer too from their trauma and troubled minds.


It is a sad indictment that in 2019 as a collective humanity that children are still being sexually assaulted by pedophiles, sick males who target young boys, children and young men. The shame and guilt, the disbelief and wilful victimisation that survivors of these crimes against themselves have to endure from their family, friends, peers, colleagues and strangers is a continuing trait of humanity and a deeply troubled society.

I faced my perpetrator (who has already been charged and convicted) in court three days ago and read my six page Victim Impact Statement which contains the last words, I am a survivor.

I am a 50 years old male, Father to five children and two Grandchildren. 

My greatest wish is for my story to be public and for those men who have gone through the same as me, to know that it is not OK that they experience all of what society treats them with and for me to know that I have directly contributed towards preventing men from suiciding is what keeps me alive.

This is NOT about me rather it’s about all men who have suffered the same.


This is about the many amazing women who walk alongside their men, the selfless women who endure the torment of these men’s minds and help them face their own demons and eventually bring down those demons too. This is who this post if for… all of those amazing women who have also endured incomprehensible suffering and yet reach out and help those men who have endured similar.


Sadly, a day after the court hearing I attended a 50th birthday party for a long time friend from college. We grew up together in the Sutherland Shire near Sydney, Australia. He shook in rage as I held his hands and told him why I had been in court the previous day.

He then wept as we recounted many people who had been sexually assaulted by the same monster who raped me, detained me, kidnapped me and held me against my own will. That same monster had been a ‘family friend’ and perpetrated against those in that family also.

The very same monster who raped a young man close to us both at school who despite my friends help suicided last year. He would have also turned 50 years of age.

I choose to speak out on these matters. I always will until my last breath in this place.

I stood in court, not sitting and I read of the impact that sexual assault of the most gross order has had on me since childhood through to now as a grey haired man. I endured more of the legal wrangle as the pomp of justice parade in front of a dislocated me. The institutions who failed me continue to act with false prophets as their guide. They force our society through these tools of oppression, with pedophilia their main weapon against our community.

These Churches and their Clergy are illegal, aiding and abetting the worst of crimes against humanity. We all must individually listen to these horrific facts and like I am doing, make the difference by not dismissing it as an inconvenient, complicated truth.

Young men, middle aged men and older men in our society are holding this crime against themselves all their lives until the burden is too great and they self harm, suicide or worse by taking the lives of innocent people in their perception that humanity has failed them.

The fact is that men too are dying at a hugely under reported rate, self harming disguised under other more convenient statistics and this all further perpetuates pedophilia. I hereby implore of you, to do something about this by caring enough to bring this issue forward openly in your lifeworld.

Make the difference by speaking openly out against this crime against all of humanity.

#mentoo


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Media Release

Alexander Hayes - June 2017

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Alexander Hayes - June 2019

Alexander Hayes - June 2019

Media Release

It is a sad indictment for the Australian nation when the very same crimes which the Offender, Adrian Sandwell has been convicted of in an Australian Court of Law, continue to be harboured, aided and abetted. Since time immemorial, the bastions who lead us to believe they are the centre for our human faith are by the same constitution exposed continually as protecting pedophiles who act against our collective humanity.

This thirty-nine (39) year catastrophic journey has affected everyone who has ever known of my story, broken my Family and the sole causal agency also for the passing of many of my peers with tragic repercussions. It is for those who have been unable to come forward that I lament, prevented in many cases with the same threats of death that I was subject to if they ever dared bring their own crimes forward, disbelieved and dishonoured.

I do not accept any apology from any human, especially those from the heads of a corrupt government that serves their billionaire selves nor the institutions that claim they exercise safe ministry, when as apologists they have had absolute knowledge of pedophiles who continue to control their rank and file. No amount of money nor poisoned chalice will bring my childhood and the rest of those lost to life again. Convenience continues to control the churches who count their profits, a hypocritical congregation of fools and evil charlatans.

To all of those who see justice served in my emancipation, let your own souls also open your mouth with bravery to speak of the atrocities that still continue to this day across all of humanity. It is up to everyone of us who believe in the safety and well being for children to continue to build the foundations for society, calling for those illegal institutions who continue to shift their responsibilities to be disbanded, permanently.

My absolute abhorrence will never cease as I bear witness to those survivors who have had their compensation capped as they capitulate, broken asunder by the same deceit, idiocy of greed and wealth of these institutions as they refuse to recompense adequately.

This document has been written solely by myself Alexander Hayes, with no presence, advice nor witness to my sole composition of this media release.

Alexander Hayes
27th May 2019


In Place Of God

In a series of emails which relate to the completion of the PhD thesis I picked out this particular moment as for me it defines the bigger picture or the ‘leap off point’ from where the PhD finishes and where the next part of the learning journey begins.


Email correspondence to Katina Michael, cc. xxxxx, xxxxx - 28th May, 2019

“... I hope the packing goes well. So much to remember and the superhuman you are becomes the human in such tiredness. What I was pointing out is that even at this late stage we have much to discuss. Place could be God. What I was pointing out is that what we put at the centre to a diagram must represented the core to the inquiry. The external variables will always alter in context the poster I created in 2015 with xxxxx emphasised that what is missing in western society is the capacity to grasp that ethically the way we consider life is based on blind faith. Moral mass. Consumer creation in the likeness of greed, wealth and more of it. You will recall the framework figure I put together with xxxxxx which put ‘country’ as central to what guides and runs this place, world. As an engineer, without any idea of what country means the xxxxx of this world see nothing other than what they can get. They contribute nothing more than how to make lifes conveniences which are tapping us to consume more. As I’m learning, in reflection I know what I don't know and in that space I’m learning more about what I consider to be of value or not. We are nearing the end now and the framework figure may never emerge anymore than what I know at the point of departure from it all. I just hope in some way to ‘nail it’ and this historical snapshot will be worth it all.

Reply from Katina Michael, 28th May, 2019.

“...Perfect. You have nailed it. Not because you mention God who I believe is at the centre of everything, but because the camera hungry body worn instrumentation attempts to sit in place of God...in place of ‘place’.”

Reply to Katina Michael from Alexander Hayes 29th May, 2019.

“... the camera by design colonises the human form and by wearing it, we become it, then in turn we lose our human sense of place. ”








Google Plus Communities

In all their wisdom, Google shut down its own history as is common in the tech world.

Google decided to close its G+ communities in 2019 which to the researchers disappointment also kills off those communities and the content which historically I had used extensively to engage with the Google Glass community as well as to host events through Google Hangouts and so on.

Here are some of the communities which I was the owner, co-administrator or participant.



Victim Impact Statement

Photogrpaher: Magali McDuffie


This Victim Impact Statement has been prepared and written in full by myself, Alexander Hayes.

In identifying as the Victim and as the Complainant in a historical sexual assault case, I hereby describe the physical effects and emotional harm that these matters had at the time of the offences and continue to have upon me to the present day.

I understand that the Victim Impact Statement (VIS) is an opportunity for me to participate in the criminal justice process by informing the Court and anyone reading this document of the impact of sexual assault on myself, Alexander Hayes. I do not regard anything I have written as being offensive, threatening, intimidating or harassing towards the offender.

I reinforce that this Victim Impact Statement is about the personal harm that I have suffered as a result of the offenders wilful behaviour that has compromised my physical and psychological well being, both of which are commensurate and not isolated in description.

Background

As a child, one of my greatest joys was attending social events organised by the Church with my Family. I attended Church services and participated in activities which supported the financial and logistical structure of these organisations, which were always described to me as an opportunity to make friends and learn new life skills.

I was enthusiastic about the prospects I had ahead of me when we moved from inner suburban Bexley to the Sutherland Shire of Sydney, New South Wales, Australia. I was a well adjusted, articulate and happy child when I first joined the Church of England Boys Society (CEBS) in early 1979 at St. John The Baptist Anglican Church in Sutherland, NSW Australia.

Honesty, trust and obedience were reinforced as virtues of this Church activity and yet these values, rules of social engagement and Law were broken by the offender  in incidents as detailed to the Court.

The wilful behaviour of the offender compromised my physical and psychological well being, with the effects being nothing less than a catastrophic betrayal of my childhood and adult humanity.

Impact On Family

The core of an individual’s identity across all cultures is considered to be informed from infancy by our immediate kin Family, who always remain central to our reference in life, yet, in my case, the very first impact I felt as a boy just entering his teenager years was alienation from my Family due to sexual assault.

As detailed in Court, the wilful behaviour of the offender immediately compromised my own sense of trust in adult males and as I experienced the fullest extent of hypocrisy and predation, in turn, it caused me to question why my innocence was not protected by those also charged with my care.

The impact of sexual assault on myself has caused shame on my Family as well as a continuing and direct impact on the relationships I have with my immediate Family. I do not know how at the point of writing this Victim Impact Statement how, if ever, I am going to be able to counteract those effects of sexual assault and heal those relationships.

Impact on Relationships

Sexual assault has had a direct and life long impact on the way in which I have been able to express my intimacy with others.

As a boy, my ‘kid code’ was scrambled for want of a better expression.

The wilful behaviour of the offender compromised my capacity to form intimate relationships with others as a teenager and I directly attribute sexual assault as the psychological barrier I have experienced at times in my relationships since with significant others.

As a result of sexual assault, my trust in others, in particular those who travelled through my life journey in long term relationships were compromised by my psychological distress. I also consider that I was denied those moments of innocence as a child exploring and forging those first moments of an autonomous identity and by being sexually assaulted, that impeccable child state ended in an unwelcome catharsis.  

The impact of sexual assault on my relationships has been ruinous, contributing directly to my separations, marriage breakdowns and deep sadness across my Family as a result.  In all, except one case, my partner was unaware of those specific matters and detail which have now been heard in a Court of Law.

Impact on Friendships

Many of my peers as a teenager noted that I would at times be ‘distant’ in conversation and at times less than convivial in my expressions towards older males who I often attributed wrongly to be of a physical threat to my well being.

My misperceptions of trust were forged in the compromise I found myself in ‘holding a secret’ which I knew would result in ‘grave consequences’ if revealed, for myself and those who I loved most. The wilful behaviour of the offender in sexually assaulting me has without any doubt been a contributing factor in the impact on my friendships with others, particularly older males as described prior.

In the company of others I have continued to experience feelings of anxiety and fear of ‘enclosure’ which has led to my self exclusion from many social events as an adult. The very same changes in my social life have had an impact on others who have been unable to understand my ‘sharp’ demeanour or unexplained hostility.

Holding a ‘secret’ in an everyday mindful state and not being able to speak of what had happened to me for fear of reprisal in its many manifestations is the backbone for the trauma and the behaviours that I have described above. Sexual assault has also caused many ‘unseen’ issues which only those closest to me can attest.

Recurrent ‘flashbacks’ of events and associated physical effects have affected the way in which I interact with friends as medical professionals describe as similar to ‘post traumatic stress disorder’. My experience is that my friendships do not often endure the mayhem that sexual assault causes in breach of trust.

In bringing my story forward, the ability to trust in others is central to what sexual assault has in the past taken away from me.

Impact On Health

The impact of sexual assault on my health is discernible in the many presentations to medical professionals over thirty years in states of anxiety and depression. The state of hypervigilance and the sense of deprivation of liberty that I experienced for so long since that period of sexual assault, I attribute directly to sexual assault.

As a child and as a sexual assault victim I recall suffering episodes of night ‘terror’, uncontrolled sweating, bed urination and ‘sleep walking’ in an uncontrolled state. As a teenager I turned to alcohol and drugs as a means to control my anxiousness and to embolden myself to counteract the fear I felt in a social setting, all of which I believe can be attributed to sustained sexual assault as the primary causal agency. As an adult I continue to suffer from severe insomnia, night ‘terror’ and hypervigilance which all  impact on my ability to share the same bed as my partner.

My physical health and emotional well being as an adult have been compromised as a result of the behaviours that became manifest contrary to my innocent disposition prior to sexual assault. Likewise, my attitude towards others and the way I now process conflict has been at times only satisfactory, at times self destructive.

There are not enough pages in this statement to provide the details of all those who have from across the medical profession helped me by listening carefully. My coping skills are due to the goodwill of those medical professionals, community members and friends from around the world who have helped me over three decades to develop ways to counteract the catastrophe of sexual assault and make healthy life choices.

Impact on Career

Since a young age my capacity and capability in social and academic performance, attention to detail and my ability to engage with complex academic challenges have been overshadowed by negative memories of sexual assault.

In fear of returning to CEBS activities and not feeling safe within my family home I recall as a teenager truanting from school, disengaging from the curriculum at times and yet despite this fact a number of my teachers in secondary school, as well as other significant mentors, encouraged me to pursue knowledge to the utmost of my ability. As a result, I have excelled academically and have held senior roles and positions of employment, not surprisingly in the early part of my career in restorative justice and child protection.

Throughout my career as an educator, my prospects of attaining financial security as a result of the impact of sexual assault have been duly direful. My economic position as a result of the effect of sexual assault as described prior in ‘impact on relationships’ has been calamitous and I am struggling now to ‘make ends meet’ which is distressing given my advanced age and lack of financial assets.

In coming forward to speak my story publicly I have been ostracised and removed from communications with a number of professional colleagues who despite their misinformation and lack of collegial empathy claimed my seeking justice in a criminal court as ‘professional suicide’. In coming forward and providing evidence in court, in speaking my story,  it is evident to me that sexual assault has had and will continue to have a direct and undeniable impact on my career professional and prospects of promotion.

I attribute the sexual assault that I have suffered as directly compromising the fullest potential and future prospects that I may have attained had I not been a victim of crime.

Impact As Victim Of Crime

I am a good person.

Most days I wake up hopeful and thankful that I have lived a good life despite the fact that the majority of what I have lived has been affected by a crime of sexual assault. The impact of sexual assault has been horrendous on my life and at times has caused me deep pain, feelings of isolation, fear of loss and great anguish.

Sexual assault breaks the rules of society. It is against the Law, against the ethical foundation for humanity and those who break this moral code then own the consequences.

I remind myself and all those who may think otherwise, that as a victim of crime, as a sexual assault victim that the fact remains that I will never ‘get over it’ rather, as a survivor I have learned to live with it.

I am a Survivor.

Alexander Hayes

18th April, 2019










Antisocial Media

This was a post that I sent into the teachAndLearnOnline Group (TALO) that seems to have sealed my fate with the educational tech geek fest which I’ve consistently fragmented with actual HUMAN discussions.


TeachandLearnOnline group

1st April 2019

Thanks Vance & Kim,

I am prepared to be outraged...and to be the one that deletes it. 

Along with Instagram, Snapchat and every other god damn anti-social-doesn't-serve-any-professional-purpose-whatsoever application that eats my time and records every word I say for its own purpose.

41 Aboriginal children between the ages of 11 and 16 have suicided in Western Australia alone in the last 16 weeks. Even the Police have managed to sign up MOU's to assist human rights and social justice groups to support the families and funerals of those affected.

Do you think Facebook, Snapchat or Instagram helped at all even under subpoena to assist in any inquiry whatsoever with those families. 

Zero. None. Nada.

They know of the whereabouts every god damned second of where those kids were, what they we saying, who they were with, what they we eating, where they were sleeping, what drugs they were taking. Every second of everyday that KNEW where these kids were at. They also know where you are at, what secrets you dont even know yourself and others around you that would shock the hell out of you too.

This isn't about '...oh look at how useful this is for me in my professional life' or '...oh this doesn't affect me because I am in control of my own destiny and it's up to each and every user abuser to make their own decisions'. This isn't about '....oh look, technology is neutral and its like a pencil' nor is this about '...it doesn't affect me or my family and because I am wearing the corporate badges they gave me to signify that I'm a professional in social networking, social media, social social'. 

This isn't about being a 'techno-tragic' nor 'techno-skeptic nor is it an interrogation of anyone's past successes or failings as humans being used by a system.

I'm calling it anti-social media and the sooner we all start building something different to this electronic data harvesting machine the better. Let's name these 'f&^%$#s and say 'Snapchat you suck with your devoid of ethics memory corrosion machine' and 'Facebook....you suck with your insidious negative, hate spreading algorithm pretending to be our more police'.

Naming and shaming a 'system' is about as effective as saying 'this is all the governments fault'.

We need to be outraged with what we know and be prepared to speak it. It's not polite nor is it civil when the very purveyors of supposed connection hold the memory, the whereabouts, the photo albums, the funeral notices and the control of billions tapping it, selling it controlling everything through it.

Yahoo

Since the beginning of time, I’ve read the news and other snippets of rubbish through the quagmire of the Yahoo adware enriched ‘privacy-my-ass’ portal that never seems to log me out even though I’ve hit the log out button repeatedly.

So after many years of having a Flickr Pro account that never got used I’ve decided to delete both my Yahoo and Flickr accounts together, or so I thought.

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After a few minutes digging through my Flickr dashboard I found the delete function - well, at least thats what it says….but dont let me spoil the story already. Check out what comes next.

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Well I would think that when you say ‘thats it then’ and ‘your account has been deleted’ and ‘GOODBYE!” in a petulant child like voice that the account is actually deleted. But wait, read on as it will become apparent thats not the case.

As I noted I still had my Yahoo tab open which is how I managed to login into my Flickr account still open I flicked over to it and hey presto! Another delete function to wade through complete with all of it’s descriptions also.

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So there I am thinking well, if I have deleted the Flickr account and the Yahoo account is linked then it seems only right that Yahoo has it’s begging turen also…so here I go to delete that account also. Now remember, this is my Yahoo ‘Privacy’ dashboard I’m deleting here….oh but this time I’m TERMINATING things.

Wow! Now for the nasty language coming out.

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So what you would expect next would be that when you click the ‘Yes, terminate this account’ button that the account would be completely removed …..but no, this is what appears next. No less than a deactivated account and ‘scheduled’ for deletion.

Now that makes you wonder what it is thats happening in the back end for your account to be fully deleted or as I suspect permanently archived with a ATTENTION stamp all over the archive record.

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So, for the record, Yahoo is not informing me how long this ‘deactivation’ state will be for nor will I know most likely when my account having been ‘scheduled’ is likely to take to be ‘unscheduled’.

I’m giving them a month and then I’ll login and see whether they have fulfilled my request. That is $6.90 per month and rising that I am better off and given that Flickr takes my images up and separates the meta-data from the image then gives you a .ZIP dump of JSON and raw files separated I’ll take my business elsewhere thank you very much.

Significant History

So tonight I’ve discovered that seven layers deep in the bowels of my iPhone I have a list of every single location I’ve ever visited since the history of me purchasing and using an Apple iphone product. In my case that goes back 11 years.

I have the choice to delete the lot of it but as far as I can tell all this is doing is deleting it from my device and the location history will still be stored on Apple’s cloud.

It states that the data is encrypted and Apple cant read it but what’s the purpose of collecting the data and hiding it if they have no intention of ever using it in the first place? Its a bit like putting cameras in the backs of plane seats (Singapore Airlines) and claiming these are not ever going to be turned on.

Here is how I found this magical mystery tour through my iPhone.

Settings App > ‘Privacy’ section > Scroll down to ‘Location Services’ > Scroll right down to ‘System services’ > Navigate to ‘Significant Locations’

The most interesting thing to me is that they are collecting data from before the location marker and after it to, suggesting to me that predictive analysis is being drawn from where I have been, likely to go and whom I am likely to see.

More chilling effects. More reasons why surveillance capitalism must be considered in each and every case of each and every provider we now engage with.

Given how closely tied my digital memory is tied to this provider I question how I can escape alive and still able to function in a society should I choose to ditch Apple too.

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LinkedOut

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The five years of so that I have been a member of LinkedIn I have received no less than 3.225 email notifications from this social media provider even though I had purposefully elected to receive no notifications at all from LinkedIn using their personal account tool.

That is 124 pages of 25 emails per page that I have in my Gmail facility.

To extract myself from this invasion of privacy and countless breaches of my time spend I had to spend over an hour configuring the account through hidden settings to remove the account.

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First of all it was the pleading and begging that if I closed my account I would cut off my contact with 1342 connections and a number of the more prominent contact points named.

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With the opportunity to indicate why I am deleting my account I thought long and hard about what it is about LinkedIn that I emphatically disagree with and wrote it out plainly for them to of course go and analyse.

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To make the best use of my professional life it will occur not locked into this waste of time and space.

Instagram Is History

My privacy concerns regarding Instagram are founded. My Instagram account has now been deleted, supposedly.

My amazing Son, Eamon Phillip Hayes.

Sadly it will probably be my children that give me the most grief as I am no longer ‘visible’ through their own Instagram feed and their perception is that yet again I have dissapeared from yet another part of their life and they are yet to understand why it is that I view the Internet with sinister intent.

After signing up in 2011 amongst the mad ‘web 2.0’ bubble of inculcation as a social web, Instagram or insta served a simple purpose for my own budding aspirations for my digital photos. The square format war had just begun and I was taken with the quick and easy upload (minus manual metadata) options.

Flickr is on my list of to-delete list as I endeavour to claw back time and sanity as we transition from a ‘social networks’ and ‘open web’ through ‘surveillance media’ and deep into the bowels of intractable ‘social credit’, in itself a bastardisation of capitalisation at its worst. Despite the attestations that Jamie P. Horsley positions, social credit is now a web of loosely and yet ever more tightly woven interrogations of our ‘likelihoods’ and that for me is the most worrying trajectory for open social web analysis that triggers insecurity by means of abject enforced conformity.

Our future survival as humans depends on our differences in culture and beliefs, not in algorithms that produce automatons in a virtual brain farm called Singularity. A camera only looks at things but humans see more than looking, yet humans are fickle creatures who easily trade seeing for looking good and surrendering their humanity in the process.

So let's examine how my Insta became my Outsta, noting that I am still mid way through trying to extract myself from the web of the Instagram parent ship, Facebook. 

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The following ‘personal’ details (screenshot above) thanks to Facebook and Instagram are now plastered through the Internet and nothing I can ever do will thwart anyones inquiry as to whether I am male (binary), what my Instagram username was (remains), what my cell phone number is (perhaps) and what my email contact is and has been since I first claimed a domain back in 1996.

A simple Google (do no evil haha) search engine request under anything using a combination of the details below will point you principally to my core domain, of which I wrest some form of supposed control via my service provider Squarespace (under review since I’ve read Amelie Lamont’s account), more so than this tracking application called Instagram that has as part of the Facebook suite of companies sold my details off to the highest bidder.

No thanks Instagram. You did not have my permission to make that information accessible given I made sure I ticked the ‘private account’ option only to locate fresh instances of Insta derived meta interfering with my life matter.

Much like Damián Le Nouaille-Diez, my own experiments with the Instagram OSX application which demanded microphone access upon installation last year sealed the fate of this platform as my preferred cell phone photo sharing app. Privacy matters to me in ways that Facebook (that owns Instagram) is trying to remove from us all and my shift shaping claw-back of digital interaction that is lost the moment these applications are loaded to our wearable computer, the ‘cellphone’.

I need a neck hammock but I will not be told that Amazon has the best deals for a purchase with a $20 credit to my Facebook group account to buy Facebook advertising delivered as mid-feed advertisements in Instagram. Likewise, my Facebook messenger app….well that's another Medium story yet to be written.

As it is for Cody Engel, the realisation that every interaction I’m making through these mobile internet enhanced applications that are metrically shaping my digital profile elsewhere is chilling.

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So, last night I made the move to request my data be removed from Instagram and of course I was presented with the moralist overture that I’ll be missed by my contacts, that my ‘friends’ will cease to be able to communicate with me and that I should consider just disabling my account first and re-consider my request all together. To suggest I am not of the right frame of mind to make decisions for myself at anytime is both derogatory and assumptive. It’s also ethically maligned with the manner in which I signed up to use the service and the continually changing monster of ways in which my personal data has been on-sold to marketeers, dodgy corporations and government national security profiling agencies that I consider is a breach of privacy.

Therefore, with the .ZIP file exported I deleted my Instagram account. How I felt after having done so is of no matter to anyone but myself however I am sure the sentiments of others would be similar. One less application sucking my whereabouts and howsabouts to waste time looking good through.

My account information, my interaction rates, my pickups and product interactions and the myriad of other features drilling aspects of this Facebook controlled application have driven me to ‘delete’ my account….knowing full well that Facebook never deletes anything.

Facebook (I’m certain) simply hides my historical ‘me’ until such time as they can profit on my past in the present. Secrecy is after all their core social sorting motivation and they achieve that transparency by drilling their ‘death blue star’ algorithm into any human-being-human possible.

This is my attempt at shift shaping from web 2.0 into web 4.0 with enough time on my hands to position my naive fanboy web 2.0 as benign before our Orwellian past supersedes our always on future. Goodbye Instagram.

(Also published on Medium )

Their Product Is Me

No doubt you are thinking to yourself “…oh here we go again…Alex is deleting his Facebook account.” Well, I’m going to make the process open for comment so if you are not at all concerned by Facebook’s invasion of your privacy please close this tab now.

“..Facebook knows so much about you they can make you believe they’re listening to your personal conversations. They have so much data about you they can send you ads that have an uncanny relevance to what is going on in the real world.” - Nat Eliason - Available at https://medium.com/s/story/yes-you-should-delete-facebook-heres-why-bc623a3b4625

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For those of you who are interested, read on.

This post is a running (updated) record of the convoluted and criminally complicit account of how Facebook has turned my private sharing and interaction with others as a ‘service’ into a manifest of everything about me for their own consumption breaching my own accords of PRIVACY. There are countless cases of stolen identity, cyber bullying, appropriation of personal information, skimming, scamming and a trillion plus points of data theft that FACEBOOK is stealing from you.

Here is an account of what it will take you to escape this largely automated encapsulation of your YOU, you life pattern, your emotional selves….your spiritual archetype as a digital personae and how they control you through this channel.

I am now choosing NOT to participate in Facebook’s algorithm (after ten years of Facebook use) which creates anxiety in it’s socially sorted users, promotes violence in its proximal adware, fosters fake ‘news’, generates an addiction to checking-rechecking (I found myself looking at the screen every 55 seconds) which is a disaster for human circadian clock and ability to interact, plan or organise anything with others using terms other than ‘…in Facebook.‘

My decision to leave Facebook I understand will be mediated by others who are trapped within its confines and is subject to my own facial recognition and profile which has already been used against me - now and into the future. Their product is ME (and YOU) and I object to this use of me for their own commercial, municipal, judicial and military purpose.

The systematic abuse of their service over my whereabouts, my contacts, interests, keystrokes and even their co-design of purposeful misspellings and repeat designed grammar failures (which I have to manually correct to generate a ‘post-change-log’) I consider abhorrent. So, here is the step I took to reduce (never eliminate as they keep a record of everything I posted and did anyway) this death blue star of a racket where their product is ME.

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As of 24 Thursday, January 2019 Facebook provides via your account settings the ability to ‘download your information’ and unbelievably (because I do not believe it) the ‘Delete your account and information - permanently delete your Facebook account and information’ option. Given I’ve tried this before ( read this post - I will need to do so after I’ve worked out what it is they have stored on my account of me through time, so, knowing my account is huge (I’ve had it since Facebook was dreamed up nine years ago and released) I will have to do so after backing up their bot ridden JSON data onto my Facebook specific drive I’ve used for this purpose.

Download Your Information - Range and Type

Not surprisingly Facebook provides the option per ‘type’ as a HTML or JSON file which ambiguously ‘you have a few days to download’ so knowing I’m not likely to trawl through 9 years of data and review every post I’ll be taking the JSON option and will use a compiler (not a browser) to view the data if I ever need to in the future.

Well….that’s the plan anyway, so let’s see how that goes. Afterall, it will join my already immense online digital me and facebook created the monster it wanted in us all - unthinking, addicted, consumer focussed USERS.

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Your File Is Being Processed

As you will note above I selected the ‘posts’ only option in JSON format at high quality yet when I clicked ‘create file’ it defaulted the result back to ‘all of my data’ in ‘HTML’ format and ‘medium’ quality. Then, as you will note below that file which is correctly labelled will now be made available ‘well let you know when its complete and you can download it to your preferred device’. Of course this means I need to log back into Facebook and check it wont I?? Their vain hope is that I’ll abandon the process and of course the file I created will auto expire and their will be no visible request that I made that request nor will the access to the file be registered as a log I can access. * Note To Facebook Developers - this is a purposeful and deceitful manner in which to conduct business with ‘users’ when the data you have collected is my personal information and not yours - hint, make the file immediately download accessible and do so without restriction…and don’t give me any bullshit about your servers cant cope with loads when I know a 4 MB photo uploads to your server in 0.001 of a microsecond.

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Well 16 minutes later I received a notification by email that the data I had requested was available for download via ZIP file but to access that file I would need to log back into my account using my current password which I have stored in a password vault and wait for it…..surprise, surprise that very same current password ‘was incorrect and I would need further verification’.

Then it dawned on me that there is yet another verification service linked in to Facebook that I haven’t yet cut the umbilical service for. Yet another string of tasks you will need to do to cut the bind-tie on this lot….de-authenticate every known application and service that you have used with a Facebook log-through.

Ten minutes of stuffing around and a new password later I was able to access the file and it was downloaded. So that brings me to the file downloaded.

Export All Data

So here I am an hour later considering downloading using the 'select all’ function and wondering whether this will work at all but willing to give it a try. After all, now that I’ve been prompted to authenticate by password FOR THE THIRD TIME whilst I am already logged in anyway…so it’s a goer and I have eight gigabytes in total (they say) that I’ve got stashed across the blue poisonous web.

So look below and marvel at the myriad of what they collect on me, market elsewhere of me and create me in a likeness of the me they think they wanted me to be.

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Eight Gigabytes And More

To be exact, eight point six two gigabytes of data and more. It beggars belief how many hours I wasted scrolling through pointless rubbish trying to find something worth reading, finding myself ‘liking’ those nuggets amongst the quagmire of rants, raves and rubbish piled high. Seeing the screaming imbeciles and pointless and mindless trolls who thought that their keyboard warrior status would surmount their inept and useless lives. Those asshats that run ‘private’ and ‘members only’ groups who didnt think I could see in the back end of their devils advocate. Mindless spinning GIFs and countless fucking dinner plate photos, here’s-me-looking-good selfies and so the list goes on.

We were all promised so much and yet it delivered so little. Oh…and yes there was a great deal of good that it delivered too but this will be the true test.

Which of you are actually my friend? Given this isn’t an egotistical exercise rather an exercise of free will and expression of malcontent, which one of you reading this post in my own personal website might actually make contact with me after I’ve disappeared from your ‘feed’ and your ‘notifications’ and ‘nudges’ and ‘bumps’ and all manner of other nasty anti-social cues that Facebook had us test on each other!!

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The Data Is All Mine(d)

So there it is above, the dirty data all lined up as far as Facebook would claim to have harvested it. True be told they haven’t included all of THEIR DATA that they mined and what they did with it, nor am I provided with anything that they onsold or benefitted from, nor have I profited from nor received any benefits financially or otherwise from what they have done with this 8.62 GBs of ME.

Leaving Groups

I set about removing myself from groups and have selected the ‘prevent others from re-adding me to groups’ feature which should never have been integral to group functioning in the first place. This coercive and dishonest feature set is tantamount to the analogy that I could be subscribed to a fascist Nazi party by an unknown random of which I have to ‘decline the invitation’ in order to maintain my dignity and integrity. What a malicious mindset this platform has been designed with.

No. I don’t at all feel like I am missing out on my inclusion in these Facebook communities as what I’ve discovered is that they are ‘cluster-bubbles of myopia’ predominantly which largely do not factor highly in what effects change in society, nor my absolute reality. Nior do I want to be part of Facebook’s grasp on power of ‘reporting’ others for their trolling or bad behaviour…that’s not Facebook’s role in society and this whole ‘social credit’ model that it is following is unethical, malicious and degenerative.

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Notifications

So as I retracted from all the varied groups that I was enmeshed with I noted that a whole series of notifications began appearing on historical photos I thought I’d buried long ago. Even though I’ve never followed NITV because I dont agree with their copyright clauses on cultural material, their tendency to expire content weeks after releasing it and their Government funded make-everything-look-good only mandate I was sent notifications…

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Password Re-Entry

Just as I was switching between ‘settings’ and 'noting that the delete groups would only occur in 14 days after my instigation to rid them I saw a new category in the settings area labelled ‘Running Advertisements Related To Politics or Issues of National Importance’ so I decided to see what it entailed. Oh no…of course not….even though I am damned well logged in already they want me to log in yet again. Fail.

Double trouble authentications when you already have my device type, IP address, location and my secure password and you want it again ? Forget it.

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Running Advertisements Related To Politics or Issues of National Importance

So here we go with how Facebook is now mediating anyones free will and their ability to make anything of any matter which might run foul of the (i)moral police state that we descending into. The steps to confirm identity include everything short of providing a urine sample although I’m sure in the future that will be mandatory too!

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Location Settings

Given Facebook has seeded all known public surveillance programs with my visual identity, turning off location tracking you would think is a complete waste of time and you are right. Click on the location history tab and not only have they tracked you locally but they have tracked you all round the world. For what reason? My personal safety? In case of national emergency? More like in likelihood of Facebook’s quest to know everything of me and everything I am in contact with.

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Advertisement Preferences

By default you don’t get any opportunity to stop advertisements in Facebook EVER and yet here they go and give you the idea that by switching this on and thet on that ADVERTISEMENTS ARE GOING TO BE GOOD FOR YOU! What a croc of crap. That’s all this algorithm is about - controlling through a channel of what you see, what you do and ultimately what you think!!

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Unfriend Your ‘FRIENDS’

Well, here is the most controversial and gut wrenching (not) element that Facebook preys on entirely to suck you back into itself, even if you want to escape it’s clutches. Heaven forbid! Unfriend your friends! OMG the whole world is going to collapse. What is going to become of my social life? How will I ever know what is going on in the world? What will my Family think? How will I connect with my children? Help!!!!! I cant get out of here. My friends and all my fake friends will know I have unfriended them all. Oh what a calamity!! The horror of it all!!!

Send me an email. Call me direct. You know the drill. be a REAL friend yeh?

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Unfollow The Followers

So they took all that effort to click ‘follow’ and suddenly I felt amazing because I had ‘followers’! It stroked my ego (not) and made me feel important (not) and suddenly my Facebook bubble of 330+ ‘friends’ and fake friends all thought my world would collapse if in my unfollowing their follow wouldn’t appear in their follow list ….gah….the whole premise is baseless and benign.

Facebook, this is not how the world works and your crazy asshat manner in which you DESTROY CONFIDENCE of the manner in which we do value each other. This whole concept of ‘follower’ is like a surveillance by association and again I reinforce, it’s baseless and simply automating what we once used to value in what each other actually used to say!

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Claim Offer

So there I am thinking that I’ve finally managed to tame the beast of return when all of a sudden I am presented with yet another piece of digital candy trying to lure me back into ‘using’ Facebook as the ‘user’. Here I am supposed to click on ‘Claim your $30 offer’ and apply it to advertisements within its own platform!

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Fake Friend

Having deleted every single person from my friend list I was then given a new ‘fake’ friend. Isn’t it interesting how ‘friends’ have been used as a accomplices to a platform that keeps baiting its users with a false sense of security, a convenient filter bubble that keeps on sucking its users back in for more ‘likes’ and every other wink and nudge point.

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Cancel Deletion

Well here I am two weeks later trying to delete the groups I’ve created in Facebook because I cannot delete my own profile until I have first deleted my groups….and on top of that I cant delete the groups for a further four days after being informed firstly it was a two week period. I’ve now got a ‘cancel deletion’ prompt now appearing below the ‘Claim your $30 Offer’.

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A Bit About Me

Photo: Alexander Hayes

Photo: Alexander Hayes

A response to the following questions for those following my journey now here in the Kimberley region of Western Australia. Here is a link to that #realstory I spoke about in this interview - https://www.livingwell.org.au/from-men/stories-of-mens-experience/alexs-real-story/


Interview with Dianna Marr on 13th November 2018

Q1. I suppose this could be an introductory question and that you could shuffle it so that it is can you tell us a little bit about yourself, background, what you are passionate about and let us know who you are?

Q2. Can you tell us what you are up to up there and what sort of things you do?

Q3. As far as drug law reform goes can you articulate your views,  how we met and can you please tell us how our philosophy is in common?

Q4. It strikes me Alexander that you have got a really organised network and a really strong team of people and I believe we are getting ourselves organised along those lines so how can we help you and how can you help us?

Q5. I sent you through that invite for the Greens to what they call the peoples dinner about corporations buying their way into our democracy, now a lot of us are members of different parties and that doesnt matter because you keep your friends close and your enemies even closer can you attend this event...can you make it on the 19th...you are back in Perth?

Q6. Finally, is there anything else...is there anything else to add or you would like to say?



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Axon Discussion

In a discussion with a colleague who wishes to remain anonymous I asked a question regarding that persons recent communications with Axon, a law enforcement focussed body worn camera developer and supplier.

The response was;

“…Quite interesting. The person I spoke to explained how the data is actually ingested into the storage and how it is categorised and filed, so that was very useful to get my head around that. 

Asides from that, the responses were what I expected in relation to data security, saying that they have staff dedicated to monitor security breaches, they use Microsoft Azure cloud that has government security standards, and haven't had any breaches to date. 

And the guy was adamant that Axon doesn't have any access whatsoever to the data, and that it is controlled completely by the customer/agency who records the data. He said that Axon is simply the facilitator of the storage. So overall it was interesting.”